Tag: depression

Ok chicas, depression is an ugly word so many of us run from. My biggest question is why do we hide from it? For me, maybe because I’m not “supposed” to be depressed. I’m first generation Mexican-American, went to college, got two degrees, have the great “American Dream” job, I work in TV, I have a great husband, two dogs, you know, the list goes on, but some days, that little word creeps up. Sometimes, I actually think I’m not enough. I feel broken because I see other women appear they have life more together. Other days I feel I’m not doing enough to give back to my community. Sometimes it’s just I ate the damn chips and queso with the margarita…. It’s called imposter syndrome. AKA it’s not true!

It's easy to post motivational pictures on Instagram. It's easy to be THAT GIRL behind a computer screen. I strive to make my family, friends, and other women feel empowered. I know how hard it is to be self conscious and, sometimes, getting a little push from someone can make all the difference.

I never understood that Colombians were "different" than us. We are Mexican, but my parents still exposed me to other Latin cultures and customs. In a way, I was always destined to meet a Colombian and fall in love with him, right? *winks* Now, I am 3 days away from boarding a flight to Colombia. I am so excited and can't wait to see what awaits us there! Julian has been there multiple times in his life (obviously), but this will be my first time visiting another country other than the US or Mexico.

As a Latina and a millennial, I realized how much POWER I have. Like my father, I am a Civil Engineer. I am active on social media. I also serve and hold officer positions on various volunteer boards, like both my parents. I have a blog where I can reach a broader audience on issues I find important. I have POWER to bring change through my work as an engineer and through my writing. When you go and make statements like the one you made about immigrants, it give me...us...the POWER to use it to bring consciousness on an issue that really needs to be resolved.

I watched the Monterey Pop documentary again last night and I fell in love all over again. People weren't on their phone the whole time and no one was pushing or fighting to try and get closer to the stage. The people in that documentary were just happy to be listening to the music live. I hope my generation can gain back that genuine love for music. Music can bring so much change and I think we have forgotten that.